Today is my birthday- I turned 28 years old.
I’m going to be completely honest in this post- I am not the biggest fan of getting older.
Age is something I have never felt uncomfortable with…except in the last couple of years…and I know we aren’t supposed to feel weird about aging, we are supposed to embrace it, love it and all that jazz. But, I also think that it is totally normal and human to feel a little odd about getting older. As you get older, you have to accept new phases of your life, whether you are ready for them or not…and that is a little scary.
And in reality, I am not much different at 28 today than I was at 27 a week ago, but something about the number just makes it feel real…and I have to be completely honest and admit that I haven’t really been looking forward to this birthday. It’s not a milestone birthday, but it feels different to me somehow. I mean, after we turn 21, there’s really not much “looking forward” to an age anymore am I right guys?!? All joking aside…..
And as I am writing this, I feel completely guilty about how I feel. I am so lucky and #blessed to have so many amazing things in my life: my health, a loving husband, the cutest fluffy dog I could imagine, great family, amazing friends, an exciting career….but I just can’t shake the feeling.
I was trying to figure out why I was feeling this way and I think the answer is: I am not really sure/I’m unsure of the future. I guess I am at an exciting time in my life where things are changing, but there are also a lot of unknowns….and unknowns make me uncomfortable. I still have so much I want to accomplish and time doesn’t wait for you...it keeps on going, not matter what.
Time doesn’t care that you aren’t “ready” for a certain age or a certain chapter in your life- time forces you to accept where you are and do the best you can with it. In my mind, I am not ready for age 28. But how do we know when we are truly “ready” for any age or any chapter? If we spent our whole lives in a state of not being ready for something, we would be stuck in a standstill and going nowhere really fast.
With age comes more responsibility. And sometimes I just want no responsibility. I know I am not the only one who feels this way every now and then.
“I want to do it all but I also want to do absolutely nothing.”
We have no choice but to accept aging and embrace it….turn any negative feelings into positive ones.
Today I am focusing on how far I have come as a person: the things I have accomplished and the crazy, exciting life I have lived thus far. Memories have a way of really solidifying who you are today- they make you realize that life is pretty damn special, and no number can change that. Life will always be magical- there will be ups and downs, but it will always be special. I am embracing that and doing my best to look forward to the unknowns and think of them as exciting challenges instead of scary obstacles.
We are all a work in progress. Every day is a chance to be better, no matter what your age number.
And…always wear your sunscreen 😉
Thank you all for the lovely birthday wishes- you are making my day bright and filled with love ♥