So those of you who have been following FitKat for a while probably know that I love running. Most of you probably also know my marathon history etc….
But for those of you who are new (HI!! So glad you’re here, love ya!) or don’t know about my history with running, here is the gist:
LOVE running. Ran NYC Marathon. LOVED IT. Ran handfuls of half marathons. Made running friends I love. Ran second full NYC Marathon. Broke leg at the end of second marathon (still finished) but not how I expected. Haven’t ran a race since….
For a more detailed explanation of all of this (it’s a pretty crazy journey) I write about it in this post.
SOO….I broke my leg while running a marathon. At the end of the race I had trained SO hard for.
I went from literally running a marathon to being parked on my couch unable to walk, let alone workout, for almost 3 months. Other than it being the literal worst thing ever, it made me cautious to start up running again once I recovered.
This all happened over a year ago now, but I still haven’t jumped into my old running ways….and I think that part of me is a little scared.
Being unable to be physically active was one of the hardest things I have dealt with. The mental and emotional struggle was tremendous….and I felt trapped in a way. And I never want to feel like that again. EVER. So I guess the fear of going through something like that again has been enough to keep me from pounding the pavement the way I used to.
I mean- I am completely healed, but it still just feels….weird. Anyone who has had an injury similar to mine probably completely gets the feeling!
I also moved from NYC to LA a few months after the leg incident…and when I moved out here I loved discovering the city and its fitness community.
Since making the move, I have been a hiker and class-goer…but not much of a runner. I go to classes with friends out here WAY more than I ever did in NYC…so working out is also my social hour, and I love that.
BUT I really do miss the mental clarity and “me time” that came with running. It’s something that just feels so freeing to me.
I saw my Garmin running watch in my bedside table the other day. It was dead because it hadn’t been used in far too long. It brought back so many great memories. Memories of training, PR’s, group runs with friends, struggles and great accomplishments. I felt super nostalgic holding it. It had taken me on so many journeys and it represented so much to me. It made me miss the way things used to be. The runner I used to be.
I dug around and found its charger, charged it up and went on a run that same day. I cancelled my fitness class plans and I went out on a 6 mile solo run and it was…..glorious. It just felt right.
I promised myself then and there, as I finished up my run, that I would make a habit out of this…because it’s the healthiest, best selfish habit I can have.
I don’t think I will be signing up for another marathon just yet…but maybe I’ll do a half this year. At the very least, I want to go on long runs at least once every week.
It’s taken me a while, but I am ready to face the fear of injuring myself again- I mean you can’t live in a bubble right?
If anything, my injury gave me clarity and allowed me to learn how to deal with a road block. It taught me that when you get knocked down…staying down won’t do you any good. You gotta get back on the horse…or slap that Garmin back on your wrist…and keep going.
So I’ve dusted off my Garmin and I promise to never let it get that dusty again.