Birthdays and Aging

by Monday, September 19, 2016

Today is my birthday- I turned 28 years old.

I’m going to be completely honest in this post- I am not the biggest fan of getting older.

Age is something I have never felt uncomfortable with…except in the last couple of years…and I know we aren’t supposed to feel weird about aging, we are supposed to embrace it, love it and all that jazz.  But, I also think that it is totally normal and human to feel a little odd about getting older.  As you get older, you have to accept new phases of your life, whether you are ready for them or not…and that is a little scary.

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And in reality, I am not much different at 28 today than I was at 27 a week ago, but something about the number just makes it feel real…and I have to be completely honest and admit that I haven’t really been looking forward to this birthday.  It’s not a milestone birthday, but it feels different to me somehow.  I mean, after we turn 21, there’s really not much “looking forward” to an age anymore am I right guys?!? All joking aside…..

And as I am writing this, I feel completely guilty about how I feel.  I am so lucky and #blessed to have so many amazing things in my life:  my health, a loving husband, the cutest fluffy dog I could imagine, great family, amazing friends, an exciting career….but I just can’t shake the feeling.

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I was trying to figure out why I was feeling this way and I think the answer is: I am not really sure/I’m unsure of the future.  I guess I am at an exciting time in my life where things are changing, but there are also a lot of unknowns….and unknowns make me uncomfortable.  I still have so much I want to accomplish and time doesn’t wait for you...it keeps on going, not matter what.

Time doesn’t care that you aren’t “ready” for a certain age or a certain chapter in your life- time forces you to accept where you are and do the best you can with it.  In my mind, I am not ready for age 28.  But how do we know when we are truly “ready” for any age or any chapter?  If we spent our whole lives in a state of not being ready for something, we would be stuck in a standstill and going nowhere really fast.

With age comes more responsibility.  And sometimes I just want no responsibility.  I know I am not the only one who feels this way every now and then.

“I want to do it all but I also want to do absolutely nothing.”

We have no choice but to accept aging and embrace it….turn any negative feelings into positive ones.

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Today I am focusing on how far I have come as a person:  the things I have accomplished and the crazy, exciting life I have lived thus far.  Memories have a way of really solidifying who you are today- they make you realize that life is pretty damn special, and no number can change that.  Life will always be magical- there will be ups and downs, but it will always be special.  I am embracing that and doing my best to look forward to the unknowns and think of them as exciting challenges instead of scary obstacles.

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We are all a work in progress.  Every day is a chance to be better, no matter what your age number.

And…always wear your sunscreen 😉

Thank you all for the lovely birthday wishes- you are making my day bright and filled with love ♥

XO Katrina

 

2 Responses
  • Elle
    September 19, 2016

    Everything you said was really well-expressed. Aging is not easy!! If someone tells me their age, or that they’re struggling with it, it’s often easy for me to say “That’s nothing to worry about it, embrace it!” But when it’s me personally, it’s really hard to do the same thing that I suggest others do.

    There are some things I do like about growing older. My confidence is better, and I’m a lot more assertive. For some of us, it really takes a long time to get to that point—and even then, it’s still a work in progress. I also think I’m gaining more wisdom in certain ways. (Of course, with this wisdom also comes a yearning: “Why didn’t I know that/do that when I was 25!”)

    You seem to have the right attitude on the future though, and that’s great. The uncertainty is natural. I can really relate to that. But I also think it’s important to try to enjoy every day, and if we’re ambitious, to try and accomplish things every week. That latter part is what I struggle with—I can really procrastinate, and that’s when we risk weeks turning into months, months turning into years, and before we know it, another year has passed. Accomplishments in many ways are out of our control. But striving to be creative, to make a difference, actively pursuing it—that’s where we do have control.

    Keeping being the lovely, positive, reflective person that you are. Happy, happy birthday. ♥

  • Elle
    September 20, 2016

    I wrote something and can’t tell if it posted.

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